4:35 a.m. - 2008-12-11
the english version of the other diary
So it's finally the big month lol...December and man, I hate it. For the past 3 years I have spent Christmas alone. While everyone else just did there own thing with there family. Well actually that's not true, last year I spent a day with my Grandmother so I guess that was pretty cool. lol She met my step-nephew Jordan last year. Cute kid really. Too bad his parents were total douche bags. Anyways. Ya but I hate holidays. I hate December. I hate every holiday that has to do with family, gatherings or anything of an importance like that. I hate it. And it's ever since well my mom left. She's in no way a bad person but I virtually pushed her away and she left. And because of that I went though holidays in group homes or at home alone. and well, that's totally not fun at all. Personally me, I don't really want to live my life spending the holidays alone and it drives me loco cause I think that that is what is going to happen. Well what can you say... once a loner usually always a loner.
It's getting late so I will come on later one. I'm actually getting tired lol. Well I'll message later.
